Many times in life it's hard to know what you want to do, and how to make certain decisions. I am attending college right now and I'm a part of the FLC, Freshman Learning Community. Yep, I am a Freshman, and I love FAU :)
In my SLS class we are working on a project right now dealing with career opportunities within the field of Psychology. As a part of project we are required to interview a psychologist on campus and ask them questions on their field became a psychologist, etc.
Me and Victoria are partners for this project, and let me tell you!
Her and I got to interview a professor and Doctor in Developmental Psychology, the study of human growth and development through out the life span. David Lewkowicz is a great man, we talked about everything relevant to his career. One of the things I loved the most was that he was so happy. He said he woke up every morning and he didn't think of it as going to work but doing what he really loved. He said that for most people to be able to get through a PhD it really had to be a passion of theirs. Right now he finished some research that he was working on related to the language of babies and how they developed those skills. They placed a small camera on the child's eyes to follow their eye movements and really focus on what parts of the human face they look at when other people are speaking to them. They discovered a great amount of information. The infants would focus more on the mouth than the eyes and children who are autistic focused more on the eyes. Of course it's not like that from birth. Children do focus on the eyes as well when they are developing but once they've reached the 18 month point they focus more on the mouth, and they discovered that Autistic children don't make that same change as to where they focus on with regular children.All of things he spoke about not one of them did grasp my attention. He truly inspired me. I've always wanted to study psychology. Since the time I started growing up, when people did certain things and I didn't know exactly why they did them. I wanted to understand their behavior. Why do certain people act the way they do? Whether they are a regular healthy person or a person with as psychological disorder. I want to learn the ways of the human mind. I want to discover something no one's ever discovered before. I want to become a research scientist within the field of Psychology.

I registered to vote this week :D
Yaeyyyy, the only problem I have is that I don't know who the heck I'm voting for???!!?!?
I only watched one presidential debate on TV, the very last one...
And I freaking love Mitt Romney!

HE'S A MORMON C'MON!
I think he can bring the economy back to the way it was, and he seems to really want peace which is what I would like to see with Americans and our relationship with other countries.
I'm not really great with Politics, So I'm going to do some research, I'm voting tomorrow!
WOOOOOO

I miss thisss

Oh I miss you so much. I've grown so accustomed to writing my thoughts and feelings on here. You are my inner being :D
And since the mechanism that let's me jot down things on here is broken. Well the FAU computer lab will have to do for now. I have a list of things I'd like to blog about. We will get to it soon I promise ;)
Me and you.
IT'S A DATE BLOGGER.
<3

The lord

works in amazing ways. He's knows exactly what to do and he knows exactly when to do it. So, although things may not seem to be sailing peacefully in the deep blue sea of your life. The Storm can't last forever after rain there is always sunshine. Unless you live in Seattle, of course. The lord has set up a time clock for our lives. I think I've almost figured out the ways of heavenly father. Things might not clear up right away. They clear up just in time, in time for you to appreciate your life and all the small things in it. And He loves us so much, Heavenly father's love is unmeasurable, I witnessed the love he has for me on Sunday. The ways of the lord are grand.


Last Sunday,
 I went to the Bishop's office. My Birthday is coming up and the greatest dream and accomplishment that I would like to complete is to visit one of the lords magnificent, grand, and white temple's. Words can't describe the happiness and excitement that fills my heart. In the Bishop's office I sat down and prepared my mind and heart for a temple recommend.
And the questions began...
What is a Patriarchal Blessing?
so I thought... Hmmm
It's a blessing one receives at he age of 18 or older concerning their future along the lines of the gospel....
I was beyond nervousness and the the bishop cleared up that one receives it when they have a reached a certain level of maturity.
Second question: Are you worthy of receiving a Patriarchal blessing?
I was like "yeah!" :)
Tithing....? Almost payed in full!
Law of Chasity. We already know I've got that down :D
Word of Wisdom: YUHHH!
And then the Bishop followed up by telling me that I had to call the Patriarchal guy Tom several times, he usually doesn't pick up his phone on the first call. And with this, he ends by saying "alright, you're set for your blessing."

I kind of just sat there in amazement.
I looked at the Bishop, and said " Did you do this on purpose?"
The bishop was confused and I told him I was there for a temple recommend... I needed a temple recommend. I was like: "I'm not ready for a patriarchal blessing." The Bishop was concerned at this point. He said: "Wait, you aren't ready then? As if I had answered the questions untruthfully. I took a long pause and thought...
"I'm ready"
I was born ready. Receiving this blessing was certainly on my to do list. I told the Bishop, " You know, maybe I will have it."
He said, " You certainly will, you are more than ready Lizbeth."
He than followed up by saying, the Lord has His ways...
I sat there in Awe. It was that simple. Soon I'd be in a chair with a patriarch and his hands sitting over my head. I was beyond excited. The bishop then followed up by giving me the Recommend I originally needed.
The series of things that happened afterwards can be described as happy sobs and smiles that reach from one end to the other on my long and narrow face. Kind of like my reaction after I was baptized, kind of like my reaction when I won third place at state championships with the Mighty Lancer Band, kind of like the very first time the missionaries had asked my to get baptized almost 1 year and 5 months ago. I couldn't believe it. I Lizbeth Garcia, was finally receiving my patriarchal blessing.

Repentance, Fogiveness, Eternity.

It was a usual Sunday at church, except for some reason everything had been pointing in my direction I realized I had made some mistakes.
To begin with, there's a new Young man in our Ward. When you don't know someone it's easy to get caught up in the moment. Not knowing a single thing about that person or their personal life. Judgment takes over...
 I thought of every false and negative thing you can think of towards this young boy. And on Sunday of course there he stood before me, he gave a talk on goals. With every word he said, it's as if he opened up like a flower. The flower started to blossom, and I had truly seen the things he was going through. He had a difficulty talking about his family. He had moved here recently from Utah and is going to school down here in Florida. There I was quick to judge him. I regret my actions so badly. The guilt was eating me up as he spoke about how hard it was living away so far from home. He had no choice but to break down. Never did I stop to think that he was alone, miles away from home. I never cut him any slack. I was quick to judge, knowing that it wasn't even my place do so. The atonement of Jesus Christ has offered me the opportunity to repent of my sins, and you bet that right then and there I repented. I felt so guilty I hadn't realized that it must of been really hard for him living so far away from his relatives and loved ones. I am so sorry. It's never too late to restart and to change. So changing my ways begin...
and will continue on from this point.
I'm going to try my best to not judge others and not let a single negative thought spill into the neurons of my brain. If one does happen to get through, I will sprinkle it with only pure and positive thoughts, and maybe just maybe I can be filled with the pure love of my savior Jesus Christ.

You know you work in the stock room at Ross when...

- Your arm is used as a hanger rack
- You have cuts all over your arms and fingers
- You can find the size to a shoe in under 3 seconds
- You have back problems
- You consider yourself a weight lifter
- You carry a knife around your waist wherever you go
- You laugh when you hear "stock room to the stock team!"
- You become the hulk when you break open a box
- You know how to categorize clothes just by giving it a 2 second stare
- You know a 10 minute recovery isn't just ONE ten minute recovery
- You throw a fit when they call you up at the register
- You work as a team with your stock room niggahs! <3

BAD LUCK? a curse?

So Yesterday wasn't really what you can call one of the best days of my life. I guess when life's going well, something bad has got to go into the mix. Or something like that. Anyways It was Monday, Labor Day and I had been wanting to go to the beach since Last Saturday when Isac decided to come into town. I woke up pretty early according to my watch and the hours that I love to sleep at, I putting on my bathing suit, grabbed some books, towels, blankets, and my uno cards. I was on my way to pick up my Best Friend Yanet and BAM. I had was came to be my very FIRST car accident. I was absolutely shocked! You see, what had happened wusssss:
Here I am driving like a normal human being, and because I'm a human being and I'm not perfect I was on the phone with Brianna. But this didn't impair my driving skills, oh no! Infront of me was a small truck who was turning with out their turning signals on of course, So anyways I stop at the light and about maybe a second goes by and someone lady rear ends me. But the impact was LOUD. I remember throwing my phone, it fell on the back seat of the car, my graduation cord that hangs on the rear view mirror in my car was now laying on top of the mirror, my pass along card that sits on the left corner right next to me infront of my cars windshield wipers with heavenly father on it fell on the groud, and well I was in complete shock. I started waving my arms around at the woman who had rear ended me! I was SO mad. but I stopped. Because getting mad would only make matters worse. By now, I had gotten out of the car and Michelle, that was her name was trying to get out of hers. She was young, wearing sunglasses and a t-shirt and shorts. She lived in Gainsville, according to her Gators license plate. Anyways, I was shaking. I was in shock. I didn't need another body part on my car that wasn't red. My mom's 2005 Toyota Corola is now black and red. So much for black and yellow! Anyways, some asian cop came to our rescue! I left the scene in 2 hours. And as for the beach..... I wetn with Yanet. My bumper is still attached. If you're wondering...

This summer I went to Cuba and it was a summer but different from the others.

Different because only spent 10 days in one of the places that I love in this world the most. I only spent 10 days with the people I love the most, breathing the air that I love the most. Cuba is one of things that I love the most in my life. It’s my get away area. It’s everything. This summer was different though. I arrived, and man was it great to see everyone, to see the familiar faces that I hadn’t seen in so long. Unfortunately, there’s something really ironic about arriving at Cuba and that is that you just really can’t wait until you get to the airport and for the plane to land but once you enter inside the airport you can’t wait to leave. If you’ve ever been to Cuba you know that the system at the airport is only disorganized and that anything you do like looking for your luggage and changing the currency can get lengthy, lengthy as in hours. My little cousin and I spent 10 hours in the airport last year and didn’t leave until midnight, thankfully this year was different. This year when we finally walked out the doors, the white electronic sliding doors, it was a relief. Outside those doors is a little area with a tall metal fence that closes up the exit and outside the fenced area you can see plenty of Cuban people waiting for their long seen family members. As you can imagine, outside of course I had my own waiting for me. My cousin and parents and I had finally stepped out with our huge cart piled with luggage on top. I heard voices coming from all directions. To my left side was my aunt from my mom’s side accompanied with her daughter also known as my cousin yelling my name and waving at me. My heart was filled with joy. It was a surreal moment. A moment I had been waiting for all summer. This is joy to me. Joy is when I see my family. Joy is when I see the people I love the most. My voice cracked and I started weeping, weeping tears of happiness.  Across from me just a little to the right was my almost entire family coming from my dad’s side. It was so nice to see the familiar faces smiling at me with joy! Waving and calling at me. The airport attendant was patiently checking the luggage for tickets and here I was struggling to find the extra in my bag, I was frantic and impatient. Finally he said, “You can go.”  I rushed to where my family was waiting, but to my surprise they weren’t there, they were already waiting for me at the exit, this little opening in the fenced up area, and there I saw my uncle, and I gave him one of the biggest hugs ever, one that I haven’t given him in a long time, 13 months exactly. Then I saw his wife, who I look up to as an aunt as well, my little cousin’s grandma and grandpa were there too. The entire gang was there, the crazy gang that I call my family. The 10 days went by quicker than I had ever imagined and at times the days went by slow. We went to the pool, played dominoes, ate pizza sandwiches, we went to the carnivals, to the beach, played cards, ate beans and avocados, had diarrhea, played tennis, made lemonade, dressed up, scared people, danced, read The Book of Mormon, gave my family gifts, paid some people visits, and finally loved. During those days I loved because I felt the warmth of my family which throughout my daily life is practically inexistent, practically never there. I can’t wait till next year, to feel that irresistible warmth all over again.

Love (III), by George Herbert.

 

                             Love bade me welcome. Yet my soul drew back

Guilty of dust and sin.

                              But quick-eyed Love, observing me grow slack

From my first entrance in,

                                         Drew nearer to me, sweetly questioning,

If I lacked any thing.

                                          A guest, I answered, worthy to be here:

Love said, You shall be he.

                                            I the unkind, ungrateful? Ah my dear,

I cannot look on thee.

                                     Love took my hand, and smiling did reply,

Who made the eyes but I?

                      Truth Lord, but I have marred them: let my shame

Go where it doth deserve.

                      And know you not, says Love, who bore the blame?

My dear, then I will serve.

                        You must sit down, says Love, and taste my meat:

So I did sit and eat.

Soneto LXVI Pablo Neruda

Soneto LXVI

No te quiero sino porque te quiero
y de quererte a no quererte llego
y de esperarte cuando no te espero
pasa mi corazón del frío al fuego.

Te quiero sólo porque a ti te quiero,
te odio sin fin, y odiándote te ruego,
y la medida de mi amor viajero
es no verte y amarte como un ciego.

Tal vez consumirá la luz de Enero,
su rayo cruel, mi corazón entero,
robándome la llave del sosiego.

En esta historia sólo yo me muero
y moriré de amor porque te quiero,
porque te quiero, amor, a sangre y fuego.



Este soneto de Neruda demuestra exactamente que el amor es y no es, que nadie lo entiende, que se transforma, que en un momento se siente y al instante desaparece. Que hace perder la razón y con el tiempo crece y más se pierde. Se ama lo que ya no existe y se comienza a odiar lo nuevo que se conoce, amando y odiando, y sintiendo que todo es amor, lo que detestamos y nunca soportamos, pero aunque morimos si todo acaba .

My first day of school!

Today was such a great day, although like at the begininng it didn't seem like it would all turn out good it did! :D
I woke at around 7 and my body was like NO :O So I ended up waking up at 7:30ish and left my house at 8:30
When I finally got unto i-95 it was quite horrible. There was sooo much traffic! oh and don't try to change lanes at 70 miles an hour. PLEASE. It doesn't work out to great in the end. I was so nervous throughout the entire drive though. I prayed countless numbers of times. When I finally got to school there was NO PARKING. Anywhere. I sort of freaked out then and there and I looked like a mad woman banging my hands against the steering wheel everytime I would turn into a corner and find that every space was occpuied by a dang car! But I did mention to find some parking, in the wrong area of course. I've been told though that FAU parking isn't truly enforced untill September 4th. so finger crossed! I finally parked and bang SWEAT. BTW IF YOU'VE NEVER LIVED IN FLORIDA DURING THE SUMMER IT GETS REALLY HOT. Like you can feel the heat in the air. It's like hawt! I. Can't. Even. But anyways I spent about two hours looking for my classes like a mad woman. Yesterday my friend Miti was able to help me a little and I got my classes looked for and everything but I wanted to go ahead and find them myself. Oh and let me tell you about how hot it was. AND SO MANY WHITE PEOPLE! geesh. It was so funny because I met a girl named melissa and she thought there was way too many black people. She said she went to like an all rich kids school though. So who know's! But anyways my first class was Interpretation of Poetry! I LOVED IT! The teacher was nice and at first I just stood there in front of the classroom. I was the first student there. and the class seems easy. After that I left the haunted green building with the stairs that crossed and that was filled with spider webs, It's building SO44. Gotta love FAU! :) So after that I went to SLS class. And my teachers name is Robert F Freund. He's germna, young, and loves to make puppets! He's so cool though haha! We talked about different personalities and Victoria and I ended up having similar personalities. Idk how that ended up being though O.o but anyways! Class ended at 12:52 and I had to mae it all across campus to the new building. Great! melissa and I were late and the class was FULL. It's my math class and I'm not sure how I feel about it, but we'll see! :) THAT WAS MY DAY! Followed by lunch with Melissa and a  music filled ride home on the highway! :) I LOVE FAU<3

#7. 7.Eat pizza hut outside at a parking lot. CHECK!

Decisions. Agency. Blessings.

     One of my friends asked me If I've been blogging lately, and I haven't. It's like I've completely abandoned it but here I am. I'm back. And I want to talk about something that's been on my mind for a while. Longer than anything unusual happening in my life. One of my really good friends, who I've shared my faith with has decided to just let go. One of my really good friends had decided to just forget everything he's ever believed in for the past 6 months. One of my really good friends has decided to take his agency to a whole new level.
I'm not sure if he'll come around, but I can only hope he does. I know that I don't regret showing him my faith and sharing the gospel of Jesus Chrsit with him. Because I know that although he has made the decision that he has made. I know for a fact that somewhere in his heart he know's it was all the truth.
But this is a lesson to myself. And I know that everything happens for a reason. When I waited for one of the happiest days of my life to finally happen... 8 months went flying by. It was probably one of the worst times in my life. In fact it was. And if there's anything I will ever do. ANYTHING AT ALL. It's that I will never ever become an inactive member of the church of Jesus Christ of Latter Day Saints. EVAR. Because if anyone know's what I went through it's heavenly father. And only Him. The amount of tears I cryed, He knows. The prayers. Trust me. He's heard. I was never alone. He was there. He was there, when my parents weren't. It was probably one of the hardest things I've ever been through. One of those moments in life when you realize that you've never felt so helpless before. Because of my experience I am more optimistic and I am stronger. Of course I am still only human, but because of the sacrifice's I made and the things which I have been through I know that If for any reason (other than me vacationing to Cuba) I ever become inactive in the church than someone better kick me in the face. I AM SO SERIOUS.
And I may not be certain if Steven's decision is the most serious he's made. If this is his final decision. But I do know this, and that's that I love my Heavenly Father. And I've never been so blessed in my life as I am now. One day I will go on a mission and maybe just maybe I can save all of those souls that Steven was not able to save himself.

:)

The Lord is my shepherd; I shall not want.
He maketh me to lie down in green pastures:
he leadeth me beside the still waters.
He restoreth my soul: he leadeth me in the
paths of righteousness for his name's sake.
Yea, though I walk through the valley of the
shadow of death; I will fear no evil: for thou
art with me; thy rod and thy staff they
comfort me.
Thou preparest a table before me in the
presence of mine enemies: thou anointest
my head with oil; my cup runneth over.
Surely goodness and mercy shall follow me all
the days of my life; and I will dwell in the
house of the Lord for ever.

50 things I want to do this summer! 2012!

1. Sneak out of my house, someones house, I don't care!!
2. Road trip to the temple with Brianna
3. Work out at the gym
4. Jog thirty minutes a day
5. Go to a baseball game
6. Yell out at someone for directions to their mom's house
7. Eat pizza hut outside at a parking lot
8. Hangout with Mr. parra and Nicholas
9. Go to Flanigans
10. Play dominoes with Brian
11. Do the Shay games with Laura and the possy
12. Have a camp out in my back yard
13. Have dinner with Daniel
14. Go to the movies with Jamie, Steven, Mike, Brianna, Josh, and Jacob.
15. Eat some sushi
16. Go to Cuba, with borito possibly
17. Become employee of the month
18. Buy some memory space
19. Get an I-phone
20. Go to Peanut Island with Borito
21. Read the Book of Mormon
22. Hangout with the Color Guard
23. Bowl with the percussion
24. Go to a band practice
25. Walk Haverhill
26. Get my dad something for Father's Day
27. Go to Key west with my parents
28. Visit FAU
29. Learn how to drive a stick shift
30. Have a picnic at the top of a parking garage at Cityplace
31. Sleepover at Laura's house
32. Go to a drive through movie theatre
33. Visit Tia Banca's grave
34. Hangout with Daily
35. Get Yanet a job
36. Go to the Stake conference in August
37. Follow the commandments
38. Write a letter to Elder Kealamakia
39. Go to the beach. A LOT.
40. Have a movie night
41. Have a talk for church
42. Share the Book or Mormon at work
43. Have a video chat lesson with Elder Ryan Tucker and his companion about the BOM
44. Paint my nails
45. Get tan
46. Watch style on abc family
47. Play the Sims 2
48. Change a Hobo's life
49. Get my nails did
50. Not regret a single thing I did this summer!

The Anonymous Mormon~

If someone ever asks me whats the craziest thing I've ever done?
I won't say I got drunk, I won't say I stole a car, and nope I didn't jump off a plane. I shard the gospel of Jesus Christ. I shared a Book of Mormon.
I can't express to any one how much I've been grateful. How much many times I've truly been blessed. And how can I not, knowing the greatness there is in god, not share his salvation? Not share the happiness that I feel when I read the Book of Mormon?
So that's exactly what I did.
I did the absolute craziest thing ever.
I took 10 Book of Mormons.
From the clerk's office at church.
Brianna and I wrote our testimonies in all of them.

And I don't regret it one little bit, I'm sure those ten teachers I gave a Book of Mormon to will have an idea of who it is. But I don't care. I just hope it truly touches them. The message in the Book of Mormon. And well. This is just a realization, that sharing the Book of Mormon isn't truly that hard, well sort of. This morning I got to school with Jamie and after lieing to my mother. We made it through the main office. With Mr. Parra's help. If not none of this would have been possible. We hung out in his class, I went to Mrs. Segura's office and of course she was no where in sight. her office was locked, and there was Mr. Spam, I asked him where the teachers mail boxes were because I had some gifts for them. We reached the office and in front of the door was a sign that read. No students allowed. It was all too much of a coincidence. All of it was meant to happen. I took pictures with my camera! But shhhhh!
This is top secret missionary work. Don't tell a soul. Unless it'll be saved.

                                                  You and I walking slowly                                                      

Hand in hand

Footprints in the sand

Watch the wind as it plays

Throwing shadows across your face

The sky was so blue

Your eyes so green

The air glittering

So sudden, so swift

Love came to us

Just like a gift

I lived here, you lived far away

Our lives called us back, no we could not stay

With a sad sort of smile you took my hand

Said while we're apart you hope I understand that...

 

[Chorus:]

You'll be holding me

And I'll be holding you

Through those long nights

My love will be pulling you through

When you see the stars

Pretend they're my arms

When you feel the air

That is me kissing you there

Say you love me

And I will say I love you

No distance could ever make that untrue

When I'm far away

I'll reach through time and space

When you hear the wind

You'll hear me saying

I love you forever

Fast forward our love story

I still remember that day

Her small precious face

You stared into her eyes

Hypnotized by her smile

But your job meant you had to travel

But we weren't ready for you to go

You held our daughter with a sad sort of smile

Said while we're apart I want you to know that...

[Repeat Chorus]

God forbid there'll come a day

When the light in my eyes fades away

But from your hearts I will not go

No bounds shall my spirit know, cause

[Repeat Chorus 2x]

So, on the night before my baptism... I asked Elder Ryan Tucker to write me a little testimony, It was very inspiring and I thought I would write it down and post it here, I lost it plenty of times, I'm not even kidding I was going to ask for it again but I found it!

Hey! So my quick testimony is this;
I know that this gospel is true.
I know that God lives and that He loves you.
I know that He is very pleased with you and has been for the past few months as you have continued in faith through your trials.
I honestly believe that you didn't get baptized in April so that I could meet you.
I am so very grateful to have met someone as strong and faithful as you so early in my mission.
You are a great example to me and I consider you a great friend!
I know that through Christ's Atonement, we can be forgiven for all of our sins.
I love this gospel and I love our Heavenly Father.
He has blessed me with so many things and I say this in the name of Jesus Christ.

I am grateful that I was blessed enough to meet you. I hope you have a fantastic night and great day tomorrow. And of course I will pray for you, I always do!
     Have a good night, Liz!


The next day I was baptized and have been for 7 months. Being a member of The Church of Jesus Christ is probably the happiest decision I've ever made in my life! :D
I love being a Mormon.

Senior Citizen Day

I love being a senior in High School, It's absolutely fabulous. I've grown a lot this past year. I've made some incredible friends, I've gained a number of responsibilities that didn't even phase my grades.
Senior week was pretty incredible but my favorite day was by far this day. I had my outfit planned since the night prior. And when i woke up and finally flopped it on I looked ridonkulous. I mean I couldn
t even look ta myself in the mirror without breaking out laughing. And the best part was that my best friend Laura went all out as well. When I stepped put of my house I ran like an old woman with my cane and once I looked at Laura in her big black truck she was histerically laughing and all I could do was the same.  She looked hilarious as well with a fake set of droopy boobs and prescription glasses we were set to drive up to our nursing homes. I mean school... hahaha
When we got there we went to the cafeteria to see Janissa, and man oh man have I never met an old woman such as herself! Janissa looked great and man was it funny! All I can say is I better have fun things to do like this in college!

Everyday that goes by I am reminded that god is real. HE IS TRULY REAL. It amazes me how much I've changed since a year ago. How much of a new person I am. But most importantly how happy I truly am. Today was Sunday and of course along with every Sunday comes a great day at the church of Jesus Christ of Latter Day Saints. I've been working so much lately that this sunday was great I really REALLY needed it. And today I joined the YSA meeting for the first time. And sadly I hated it, it's so boring and depressing. It's nothing like Sunday school, and I complained so much about Sunday school that now I sort of realize I was wrong all along. Idk, maybe it'll get better. Maybe it's the fact that we meet in the gym on the stage and it's dark and weird looking. Or maybe it'ds just me. But enough about YSA, let's talk about how before I was ba[tized I woud alsways go to the spanish sacamrent and don't get me wrong I reeally rteally liked it. Singing in spanish and seeing how many members the spanish ward had. They are truly a special bunch. I remember on Fast and testimony Sundays there would always be an odd group of individuals who would go up and bair there testimonies.... it was never the same people. I always wanted tot get up there to talk but I never got the guts to actually do it. But today out of all days I arrive to church and the spansh Bishop asks me if I can stay at church a little later so that he can use me as an example, and I said sure. But what ended up happening was the at 2:55ish when the combined activity with the spanish ward was all done in the chapel one of the church leaders (I always forget his name) asked me to speak, on the microphone he was using. I knew it was going to happen and while sitting there I was extra nervous. He finally called me up to give an example on dharing the Book of Mormon... I got up there and literally poured my heart out like never before. These people who always saw me, but never truly knew me looked into my heart, they saw my desires, wants and beliefs. I couldn't stop the tears from running down my face. I couldn't stop my voice from cracking either. But that was the inevitable. Especially with the way I've felt these past few couple of days. But even with me being sick and sounding funny. They felt the spirit. And they saw the message I wanted to get across. I spoke about how important it was for each and everyone one of us to share The Book of Mormon and to read it, because each and everyone of us deserve salvation... I told them about the months before my baptism and how hard it was for me. About the missionaries... and well by the end of the meeting I think a lot of people were listneing, and one of the missiionaries sitting in the front was crying. I've never learned his name, all i know is that I met him on the night I went on witht he Sister missionaries to teac witht hem. I think he's from Hawaii and he reminded me of Elder Kealamkaia. Today I also realized that I miss Elder K a lot, one of the Sister missionaries who met me before my baptism but was transfered before I actually got baptized told me she texted him, she gave me a hug from Elder k and he said he loved me and that he was proud of me. If it weren't for the missionaries I have no idea where I'd be right now. There's one thing I do know though, and that's that I wouldn't be as happy as I am now.

If you are a missionary, well blessed art thou. For preaching what changes lives for others...
and maybe even saves them too :)

I can't believe it's been half a year since I was baptized. I cannot believe it<3
Brianna just posted this on my wall on Facebook. I couldn't read it without breaking down...
Becoming a Mormon is the best thing that's ever happened to me in my life...

Mr. Valdez

Today was teacher take over day :D
It was very interesting.
I love Mr. Valdez's 1st hour because all the Spanish academy students are in there...
I love those kids, I was very comfortable and they all know me.
We learned Substantivos Relativos y Clausulas... something like that haha
Anyways we read from their text book and did Practice A
Then there was 2nd hour where I only knew about two kids :)
It was alright, I made jokes and had fun. Being a teacher might be horrible at times, but I'm sure many people love what they do.
Then it came down to Mr. Valdez's third hour. DUN DUN DUN. Lol all the bad kids are in there.
Including dank face Roberto.
I was shaking inside. and out when It came to the moment of truth, It went smooth though
I made jokes :)
and I almost taught
Roberto and I made contact a couple of times.
And he kept trying to stare at me secretly
He's a creep hah
Mr. Valdez is short and hillarious.
I'm not affraid of public speaking... I already know this
and well life's good..
This weird kid Jose was also in the class.. he looked crazy and asked a lot of questions. Laura came in the class also, and showed me the cords :) They look beautiful. I can't wait for graduation! :D ahh
Angel ditched me half way throught the class, it's alright
And some wierdo kept yelling Chris's name at Laura. You bet it was annoying
I was complimented on my hair<3
I really don't want to cut it
I went to Parra's for 5th hour... We all said jokes hahhaha
And Brian. Welll he's just Brian. He told me I looked Pretty... It's whatever.
I FINALLY BOUGHT MY PROM TICKET. wooo
Now I need a dress!!!!
Life Challenge #2456
haha :)
Well... I wen to Donnellys class during 6th hour
And then left to Perez's where I fell on my a**
That was SO  embarrassing!
Don't run in heels. EVER.
oh and I went to Mr. J's class, I saw Sean and met up with him in Corey's class. Everyday he does something that makes me like him less... oh well.

I love The Church of Jesus Christ of Latter Day Siants and this Sunday it being easter and all I had never truly known why it was related to christ till today. Kind of sad I know Haha But I was blessed with the opportunuity of bringing Jamie to church along with me.

Jamie goes to school with me and she is a wonderful friend. She's innocent and humble. And you know what else? She has a broken heart and a contrite spirit. Today at church Sister Rosebrough was speaking about sacrifice and well she was filled with the sprirt. You could see it in the way she spoke and everything. She even shed a couple of tears at the end. Jamie ended up asking me if everyone cried at church when they spoke haha, I told her that today was a special day and that not usually haha, At the end of the day on our ride home though she told me that seeing them cry and getting so emotional while they spoke really showed the truth in what they spoke. It touched me how this gospel is true and it can touch anyone. ANYONE. I still look forward to the day I serve a mission. And the day I recieve my patriarchal blessing... Jamie was so comfortable at church she greeted everyone. Helped me out with the programs, she shook everyones hands and she listened very closely to everyone who spoke. She even sang with me! I messed up a couple of times because we decided to sing something new that I'd never sang before in my whole entire life haha, and of course one of the only few people who knew what they were singing were the missionaries. Sunday school was alright, all the boys were being disruptive as usual and Brother Mckalpine has control over no one! But anyways we read a couple of scriptures and finally what I had been waiting for all day had finally come, YOUNG WOMANS BABY! You already know I'm going to miss all of these girls like crazy but Jamie was laughing at everything, she fit right in. And the talk was perfect. Sister Cano did a really great job she even shared some person information on how her father wasn't always there while she was growing up, we spoke about families and how we can get to know our father and mother better. I liked it a lot because it made me realiaze that I need to learn more things about my parents and I need to spend more time with them... We read some scriptures and sang, I said the opening prayer, and we did the theme. Our good news moment! I ended up giving Jamie a Book of Mormon.. I wrote my testimony in it... She hadn't read it untill she got home but this is what she said:

"Thank you for the note you left me! There should be more people like you in the world."

This means a lot to me, the gospel and bringing people unto it has become a great part of my life...

Brianna and I have made a bet

I give Jamie a month, she gives her 2 and Donald gives her 5 weeks haha :)

I'll be showing you this post Jamie, on the day of your baptism!

ONE DIRECTION:

[Verse 1]
[Liam]
You're insecure,
Don't know what for,
You're turning heads when you walk through the door,
Don't need make-up,
To cover up,
Being the way that you are is enough,

[Bridge]
[Harry]
Everyone else in the room can see it,
Everyone else but you,

[Chorus]
[All]
Baby you light up my world like nobody else,
The way that you flip your hair gets me overwhelmed,
But when you smile at the ground it ain't hard to tell,
You don't know,
Oh oh,
You don't know you're beautiful,
If only you saw what I can see,
You'll understand why I want you so desperately,
Right now I'm looking at you and I can't believe,
You don't know,
Oh oh,
You don't know you're beautiful,
Oh oh,
That's what makes you beautiful

[Verse 2]
[Zayn]
So c-come on,
You got it wrong,
To prove I'm right,
I put it in a song,
I don't know why,
You're being shy,
And turn away when I look into your eye eye eyes,

[Bridge]
[Harry]
Everyone else in the room can see it,
Everyone else but you,

[Chorus]
[All]
Baby you light up my world like nobody else,
The way that you flip your hair gets me overwhelmed,
But when you smile at the ground it ain't hard to tell,
You don't know,
Oh oh,
You don't know you're beautiful,
If only you saw what I can see,
You'll understand why I want you so desperately,
Right now I'm looking at you and I can't believe,
You don't know,
Oh oh,
You don't know you're beautiful,
Oh oh,
That's what makes you beautiful

Na Na Na Na Na Na Naaa,
Na Na Na Na Na Na Na Na [x2]

[Middle 8]
[Harry]
Baby you light up my world like nobody else,
The way that you flip your hair gets me overwhelmed,
But when you smile at the ground it ain't hard to tell,
You don't know,
Oh oh,
You don't know you're beautiful,

[Chorus]
[All]
Baby you light up my world like nobody else,
The way that you flip your hair gets me overwhelmed,
But when you smile at the ground it ain't hard to tell,
You don't know,
Oh oh,
You don't know you're beautiful (

[Zayn:] Oh),
If only you saw what I can see,
You'll understand why I want you so desperately ([Harry:] Desperately),
Right now I'm looking at you and I can't believe,
You don't know,
Oh oh,
You don't know you're beautiful,
Oh oh,
You don't know you're beautiful,
Oh oh,

[Harry]
That's what makes you beautiful

I've been singing this a lot, it makes me feel good.

1. We are all enlisted till the conflict is o’er;
Happy are we! Happy are we!
Soldiers in the army, there’s a bright crown in store;
We shall win and wear it by and by.
Haste to the battle, quick to the field;
Truth is our helmet, buckler, and shield.
Stand by our colors; proudly they wave!
We’re joyfully, joyfully marching to our home.

[Chorus]
We are all enlisted till the conflict is o’er;
Happy are we! Happy are we!
Soldiers in the army, there’s a bright crown in store;
We shall win and wear it by and by.

2. Hark! the sound of battle sounding loudly and clear;
Come join the ranks! Come join the ranks!
We are waiting now for soldiers; who’ll volunteer?
Rally round the standard of the cross.
Hark! ’tis our Captain calls you today;
Lose not a moment, make no delay!
Fight for our Savior; come, come away!
We’re joyfully, joyfully marching to our home.

3. Fighting for a kingdom, and the world is our foe;
Happy are we! Happy are we!
Glad to join the army, we will sing as we go;
We shall gain the vict’ry by and by.
Dangers may gather—why should we fear?
Jesus, our Leader, ever is near.
He will protect us, comfort, and cheer.
We’re joyfully, joyfully marching to our home.

Saving this...

I may not always know what im doing but ill try to make things better - I promise ill ask for your help - I cant do this alone - but if you'll take a chance on me we can do great things together - I promise if you believe in me ill find the courage to reach for your every dream. :)

Words may sting, but silence breaks the heart.

Remember that kid I was telling your about? That asked for your number? Well he asked me about you today again! This nigguh is INTERESTED. Lol.

My bestfriend's have got my back! Even if they post a bunch of lie's on my wall :)
Roberto and I don't speak anymore. I don't regret anything with him. I gave it my all. And it was him in the end that messed everything up. I fell for someone, and now I'm getting back up.. slowly but I'll be up before you know it.... And he was young. He was so young that he didn't know what he wanted. He stopped talking to me. And it's been three days now. I know he won't speak to me ever again. I kind of wish I knew why all of this was happening but I don't. I texted him today. and nothing. and I called him. I give up. I've given up on love .And for the first time in my life i fought for it. Usually I'm the one who ends things in relationships. Well Roberto I fought for you. I got attached I'm not going to lie. It's okay though. Because after this life goes on. I had plans for you and I, but it's okay... you didn't know how to dance anyways hahaha

Well I guess this is it...
There's not much more to say. I think I can forget this... It's not like I see him at school too often
I won't get any texts or calls from him so that won't be too much reminding. I don't play soccer. So it's all good. And if I can ever give anyone any type of advice with guys it's that you can't get too attached because then this will happen. but hey! It was nice while it lasted. No regrets! THIS HAPPENED FOR A REASON. I guess there's some hot guy at college who I'm meant for?

Tequiero without any spaces

Uh oh

It's time to blog because the world just isn't the same without my thoughts on here...
Or something like that
I want to talk about boys and how for some reason I thought I knew how to distinguish their every move, or atleast I knew the way they think. The day I understand boys is the day I can have a serious relationship. Or something like that...
Thanks to Rosy I'm talking to someone right now, and they're pretty special. But talking to this young man feels like talking to a young woman on her preiod. or just some bipolar freakazoid as I call it. Roberto can be happy one day and upset the next, I surely won't be posting my blog on Facebook anymore I don't want him to read this, but I had plans and well Rosy told me something crazy the other day. She told me that Roberto would get bored in his relationships. GET BORED. Yesterday he thought he was the funniest person on this earth and pulled what I called the best April fools of all time, well he surely fooled me.... he texted me. He texted me something that I would have never thought would have affected me so greatly. He said something like: Hey we can't talk anymore I don't have feelings for you. Something along those lines. LET ME TELL YOU I almost S****** myself. then he goes on with APRIL FOOLS. This niggah almost gave me a heart attack. I've gotten way too atatched. And in the past couple of days he's gotten bored. He texts with periods at the end of all sentences. all of this nonsense. Idk what to think anymore but has he gotten bored with me? I don't consider myself boring :/ Anyways I'm all confused about boys. and I need to do something about this. I don't want to stop talking to him. He makes me happy. He really does. I guess I'm just overreacting.
That is what us girls do, right?

Somebody that I used to know...

 

[Gotye:]
Now and then I think of when we were together
Like when you said you felt so happy you could die
Told myself that you were right for me
But felt so lonely in your company
But that was love and it's an ache I still remember

You can get addicted to a certain kind of sadness
Like resignation to the end, always the end
So when we found that we could not make sense
Well you said that we would still be friends
But I'll admit that I was glad that it was over

But you didn't have to cut me off
Make out like it never happened and that we were nothing
And I don't even need your love
But you treat me like a stranger and that feels so rough
No you didn't have to stoop so low
Have your friends collect your records and then change your number
I guess that I don't need that though
Now you're just somebody that I used to know

Now you're just somebody that I used to know
Now you're just somebody that I used to know

[Kimbra:]
Now and then I think of all the times you screwed me over
But had me believing it was always something that I'd done
But I don't wanna live that way
Reading into every word you say
You said that you could let it go
And I wouldn't catch you hung up on somebody that you used to know

[Gotye:]
But you didn't have to cut me off
Make out like it never happened and that we were nothing
And I don't even need your love
But you treat me like a stranger and that feels so rough
And you didn't have to stoop so low
Have your friends collect your records and then change your number
I guess that I don't need that though
Now you're just somebody that I used to know

[x2]
Somebody
(I used to know)
Somebody
(Now you're just somebody that I used to know)

(I used to know)
(That I used to know)
(I used to know)
Somebody

 

50 THINGS I'D LIKE TO ACCOMPLISH DURING MY LIFETIME

So a long long time ago I had this list with a bunch of funny things that were somewhat serious and dumb that I wanted to accomplish during my lifetime. and because I lost it, and I have wonderful memory I've decided to rewrite it,  and well these are very embarrassing so stop right now. DO NOT READ ON.

1. Become an astronaut
2. Visit the moon and collect moon sand
3. Meet spongebob Squarepants
4. Purchase a bunch of fake tattoos and stick them all over my body
5. get grillz
6. Get a driver's license
7. Become validvictorian
8. Get a cellphone
9. Get a tattoo
10. get the lower lip piercing i've always wanted
11. Find you
12. Live on a farm with a bunch of animlas I saved
13. Get a bus driver's license
14. Straighten my nipple hairs
15. Have a great collection of nickies
16. Have an ipod
17. Take 15 pictures
18. Buy a nice technological watch that tells standard eastern time
19. Take a shower everyday
20. Let my toe nails grow
21. Learn how to surf
22. Become a tennis player
23. Repay my parents all the money I owe them may it be their properties and such. etc
24. Learn how to dance salsa
25. Bring my family from Cuba to live here
26. Get baptized
27. Graduate high school
28. perform in the dome
29. Find a date to the prom
30. N da pickles
31. never blurr out what lexy means!
32. Win the lottery
33. Make Raquel my personal cheff
34. Graduate highschool with a 3.6/7 gpa
35. Become 130 pounds
36. know what I want to be when I grow up
37. Get a pet
38. Become president of the UNITED STATES
39. Become president of Cuba
40. Own an animal shelter
41. Get lasic hair removal surgery
42. get laisc eye surgery
43. Own a boat
44. Become famous on youtube
45. Cannon eos T2i
46. Get married
47. Have lot's of kids like my mother didn't have
48. Become a pilot
49. Loose my fear of heights
50. Get rid of all my sickenesses

These are all stupid and embarrassing I created this list in the 8th grade or something like that
. Haha memories <3

GOALS

Lately I haven't been doing what I love a lot, I haven't been setting goals and accomplishing them. So it's done. I am setting goals and I am accomplishing them.

one of the goals I had was to give Mrs. Bingham a BOM, all that's left now is to wrap it and hand it to her.
Anything can happen, she can think I'm a weirdo and judge me. Idc all I know is that I did the right thing. The spirit is telling me it's the right thing. So heck with it! What do I've got to lose?
Another thing is that I promised myself is that I'd lose weight. Because I'd like to feel better about myself. I want to feel happy with myself. and my body. <3
Best believe I'm funna go to the gym, I thought I'd go to Youfit like I always had but today Gelzon told me that you can have a 5 person membership at ymca for 13 dollars a month. Guess who's getting a membership??!?!?! THIS CHICK RIGHT HUR.
I have other goals. And those will go on the following post :)

Addictions

So the greatest addiction and obssession I have is hands down watching Youtube videos, I absolutely love watching videos, subscribing and just liking everything I watch. It's literally become my television! And I'm not just sayin' that because I have no cable.... but man do I love coming across some hilarious videos! One of my favorite youtuber's Michelle Davis created another channel with his friend Kyle and his other friend... I don't remember his name but he's suppose to be some real big nerd... anyways the channel is called we have girlfriends... They talk about funny thing's that have happened to them in highschool and what not. This video in particular made me LAUGH OUT LOUD. I mean it's been awhile since I've come across a Youtube video that has made me laugh so much and it really reminded me of why I loved watching videos in the first place. It has some minor language issues... but it's flippin' hillarious!!! PLEASE WATCH IT!

Jaelynn and Yusimi

Jaelynn, Yusimi and I went to Olive Garden the other night and it was one of the best nights I've had in a long time... we each ordered the three course meal for 12 dollars and let me tell you I hadn't had that much food like that in a while. I had so much fun though! Jaelynn was the funniest all night. When we first got there the waiter asked us how are Valentine's day had went, by the way it was already March... when she had finally left me and Yusimi laughed about the whole thing. Jaelynn ordered pizza and never ate it. Oh and the garden salad I ate as my appetizer filled me up in a second. I love the bread sticks and I think they were my favorite :) Jaelynn was drawing with her crayons and insisted on grabbing some plates on the table while playing with Yusimi's phone... by the end of the night everything was on the far right of the table away from Jaelynn it was quite hilarious. Then she insisted on cleaning the high chair she was sitting in with the napkin she had used to clean her face. She was arguing to herself in baby language and wiping all sides of the chair. I ended up crying from all the laughter. It was also someone's Birthday at the other end of the room and you bet that when the restaurant employee's started singing happy birthday Jaelynn sang along too. Then at the end she was clapping her hands and screaming yay!!! We were probably the loudest in the entire restaurant... I'm 100% sure. She also loved it when I took a couple of snap shots at her, she would lean back and strike a pose then afterwards she would go all crazy telling me to let her see the picture following up with some more yay's and claps hahaha! It just reminded me of how happy a simple little baby can truly make you! :) And how blessed Yusimi is to have that little ball of joy in her life. kids grow up so fast but the process is truly amazing... and I can't wait til I have my very own!!!

Not over you, Gavin Degraw

Dreams, That's Where I Have To Go
To See Your Beautiful Face Anymore
I Stare At A Picture Of You And Listen To The Radio
Hope, Hope There's A Conversation
We Both Admit We Had It Good But
Until Then It's Alienation, I Know, That Much Is Understood
And I Realize

If You Ask Me How I'm Doin I Would Say I'm Doin Just Fine
I Would Lie And Say That You're Not On My Mind
But I Go Out And I Sit Down At A Table Set For Two 
And Finally I'm Forced To Face The Truth
No Matter What They Say, I'm Not Over You
Not Over You

Damn, Damn Girl You Do It Well
And I Thought You Were Innocent
You Took This Heart And Put It Through Hell
But Still You're Magnificent 
I I'm A Boomerang Doesn't Matter How You Throw Me
Turn Around And I'm Back In The Game
Even Better Than The Old Me
But I'm Not Even Close Without You

If You Ask Me How I'm Doin I Would Say I'm Doin Just Fine
I Would Lie And Say That You're Not On My Mind
But I Go Out And I Sit Down At A Table Set For Two 
And Finally I'm Forced To Face The Truth.
No Matter What I Say, I'm Not Over You

And If I Had The Chance To Renew
You Know There Isn't A Thing I Wouldn't Do
I Could Get Back On The Right Track
But Only If You'd Be Convinced
So Until Then

If You Ask Me How I'm Doin I Would Say I'm Doin Just Fine
I Would Lie And Say That You're Not On My Mind
But I Go Out And I Sit Down At A Table Set For Two 
And Finally I'm Forced To Face The Truth
No Matter What I Say, I'm Not Over You
Not Over You
Not Over You
Not Over You

I wish the local missionaries from my ward did this with me haha, that is if I played the guitar and was amazingly talented!

He

is always there. Through thick and thin. Through everything. My savior Jesus-Chrsit is always there. I was watching a video the other day and I thought why not actually take Him with me everywhere I go. So on Monday that's what I'll do. It's like a challenge perhaps you can say, i will have this small photo with me, and I will never let it go. EVER. I'm taking Jesus Christ with me everywhere I go. He will be at my side, because He is always there. And everyone will see Him. Those who pass me by, my friends. Jesus Christ will be around just as He is everyday. I will gain a new perspective. I will feel His spirit more and truly know that my savior is and will always be there.

Those who mind don't matter, and those who matter don't mind...

And sometimes people take the time to reflect on their actions. They ask their closest and wisest friends for advise. And because everything happens for a reason, there will be no regrets...
The other day I was wacthing the show mobbed. And well it was truly awesome.... the only reason I was watching it was because I had no cable. And well maybe it was a sign...because of me and my best friend Brianna getting into an arguement. But then I started to think deeply on the matter. What if we never had resolved our problems and had stayed upset with each other for years. I'm not the kind of person to do that and so I waited for Brianna to do decide if she was going to speak to me again or not. And thankfully she got over the entire situation and remembered what was most important and that thing was our friendship. BUT SERIOUSLY THAT SHOW MOBBED WAS AWESOME.

This is what the show is like, with huge crowds around those who are in the feud, they sing and dance and there is an apology...

Host of the show...