Decisions. Agency. Blessings.

     One of my friends asked me If I've been blogging lately, and I haven't. It's like I've completely abandoned it but here I am. I'm back. And I want to talk about something that's been on my mind for a while. Longer than anything unusual happening in my life. One of my really good friends, who I've shared my faith with has decided to just let go. One of my really good friends had decided to just forget everything he's ever believed in for the past 6 months. One of my really good friends has decided to take his agency to a whole new level.
I'm not sure if he'll come around, but I can only hope he does. I know that I don't regret showing him my faith and sharing the gospel of Jesus Chrsit with him. Because I know that although he has made the decision that he has made. I know for a fact that somewhere in his heart he know's it was all the truth.
But this is a lesson to myself. And I know that everything happens for a reason. When I waited for one of the happiest days of my life to finally happen... 8 months went flying by. It was probably one of the worst times in my life. In fact it was. And if there's anything I will ever do. ANYTHING AT ALL. It's that I will never ever become an inactive member of the church of Jesus Christ of Latter Day Saints. EVAR. Because if anyone know's what I went through it's heavenly father. And only Him. The amount of tears I cryed, He knows. The prayers. Trust me. He's heard. I was never alone. He was there. He was there, when my parents weren't. It was probably one of the hardest things I've ever been through. One of those moments in life when you realize that you've never felt so helpless before. Because of my experience I am more optimistic and I am stronger. Of course I am still only human, but because of the sacrifice's I made and the things which I have been through I know that If for any reason (other than me vacationing to Cuba) I ever become inactive in the church than someone better kick me in the face. I AM SO SERIOUS.
And I may not be certain if Steven's decision is the most serious he's made. If this is his final decision. But I do know this, and that's that I love my Heavenly Father. And I've never been so blessed in my life as I am now. One day I will go on a mission and maybe just maybe I can save all of those souls that Steven was not able to save himself.