For the first time in my life, i don't want to go to Cuba. It's insane to think this. To know that i have no desire to see my family. It's been an entire year since i've last seen their faces. MY ENTIRE FAMILY. This summer i am very fortunate, i have been blessed, i am finally visiting with my cousin. He's never met any of our relatives. He doesn't know his grandparents or his aunts and uncles. It saddens me. But i know that this year will be the change of it all. I leave tomorrow at 3:45p.m. And i won't be back until August 13th 2011. I'm going to miss everything so much. I won't be attending sacrament at church for 4 sundays. I will also miss 10 band practices. And not to mention Haverhill won't see me( my dog.) I think there is a small part of me that wants to go though. I know it hasn't hit me. I love my family so much :) Words can't describe. Once i arrive at the airport in Cuba and i finally come out and se a familiar face, I will be extremely happy. Filled with Joy. I can't wait for the moment. All i have to do now is wait, pack, and say good-bye to those who i will leave behind! <3