Things just aren't the same anymore.

<p>I've decided theres something missing in my life and I'm going to do something about it. During my years of high school I used to do something that I loved with all of my heart, something that meant the world to me. But I'm honestly not the same person without it... I miss doing marching band! I miss being a part of the Color Guard, doing things that made me happy. Being a part of a group that meant so much to me. I'm not sure what the fau band is like, but if they're anything like John I's Band, I'll be very excited. Try outs were on the 30th of March, but I wasn't able to make it... I looked online and I have to make up my own routine and stuff, I'm not sure how I feel about that. But if it means being a part of the FAU marching band, then I got dis! Heavenly father knows how nostalgic I get when I watch my old band videos. He knows everything. He knows that Color Guard is literally a lifestyle. It was my first religion before i became a Mormon. And I haven't practiced it for an entire year. How does that feel? I'm dying inside, that's how it feels! But what can't I wait for? The moment for me to perform infront of the entire university. Then will I feel complete. Because only someone who's done colorguard before understands the feelings you get before a performance. And only a true color guard member will ever understand the satisfying feel you recieve after giving your heart out to an entire group of uncalculable amounts of people. The feeling after a performance is everything. This is why I LOVE COLOR GUARD.<3