July 15, 2011

If i die young is officially my favorite song :)


If I die young, bury me in satin
Lay me down on a, bed of roses
Sink me in the river, at dawn
Send me away with the words of a love song

Uh oh, uh oh

Lord make me a rainbow, I'll shine down on my mother
She'll know I'm safe with you when she stands under my colors, oh and
Life ain't always what you think it ought to be, no
Ain't even grey, but she buries her baby

The sharp knife of a short life, well
I've had, just enough time

If I die young, bury me in satin
Lay me down on a, bed of roses
Sink me in the river, at dawn
Send me away with the words of a love song

The sharp knife of a short life, well
I've had, just enough time

And I'll be wearing white, when I come into your kingdom
I'm as green as the ring on my little, cold finger, I've
Never known the lovin' of a man
But it sure felt nice when he was holding my hand, there's a
Boy here in town who says he'll love me forever,
Who would have thought forever could be severed by
The sharp knife of a short life, well,
I've had, just enough time

So put on your best boys and I'll wear my pearls
What I never did is done

A penny for my thoughts, oh no, I'll sell them for a dollar
They're worth so much more after I'm a goner
And maybe then you'll hear the words I been singin'
Funny when you're dead how people start listenin'

If I die young, bury me in satin
Lay me down on a, bed of roses
Sink me in the river, at dawn
Send me away with the words of a love song

Uh oh (uh, oh)
The ballad of a dove (uh, oh)
Go with peace and love
Gather up your tears, keep 'em in your pocket
Save them for a time when you're really gonna need them, oh

The sharp knife of a short life, well
I've had, just enough time

So put on your best boys and I'll wear my pearls 

July 14, 2011

When something hasn't hit you yet.


1:10am
its not that
you dont get it
I FREAKIGN LOVE MY FAMIKLY
i would kill myself for them
die.
fight in the revolutionary war.
give up anything
its just for the first time ever
it hasnt hit me
the fact that im leaving to viisit them tomorrow
like i havent realized ti yet
Lol
woww lol
well write this on a piece of paper im going to cuba tomorrow to see my family and then smack it across ur face
lo
For the first time in my life, i don't want to go to Cuba. It's insane to think this. To know that i have no desire to see my family. It's been an entire year since i've last seen their faces. MY ENTIRE FAMILY. This summer i am very fortunate, i have been blessed, i am finally visiting with my cousin. He's never met any of our relatives. He doesn't know his grandparents or his aunts and uncles. It saddens me. But i know that this year will be the change of it all. I leave tomorrow at 3:45p.m. And i won't be back until August 13th 2011. I'm going to miss everything so much. I won't be attending sacrament at church for 4 sundays. I will also miss 10 band practices. And not to mention Haverhill won't see me( my dog.) I think there is a small part of me that wants to go though. I know it hasn't hit me. I love my family so much :) Words can't describe. Once i arrive at the airport in Cuba and i finally come out and se a familiar face, I will be extremely happy. Filled with Joy. I can't wait for the moment. All i have to do now is wait, pack, and say good-bye to those who i will leave behind! <3