Sometimes it's a complete surprise the way things in life work out. The way we need closure sometimes to certain situations, but for one reason or another we don't recieve it. Well, I just want to say that a huge weight has been lifted off my shoulders. I had forgotten it from time to time, but for some reason or another the thought came back to mind. It would wander in my brain, and it had honestly really bothered me. The why's and if's... but no regret came upon me because I had made the right decisions. I honestly did the right things, there was no reason for what had happened to me, to even occur. But anyways, one does not necessarily know the plans God has in mind for them in their life. So I took it as is. In the end it wasn't even worth sacrificing my happiness. And like all of the other things that happen in this mortal life of mine, they occur with a reason. Tonight I had closure. Maybe not the
kind of closure I had been looking for months ago. But I've certaintly had some closure with myself, and my inner being. The kind that leaves me at peace, and the kind that leaves Heavenly Father at peace. Forgiving others is probably one of the hardest things to do in our lives. However, there's no space for anger, regret, or grudges in heaven. I've never been there, No. But if it's anything like they talk about it at church than I must forgive and forget. Most of the forgetting was done, completely, 99.9%. The only thing left was to forgive. Brian ended up apologizing after all ... and I really did forgive him. Because at the end of the day... what help does it do, to hate him for the rest of my life? Jesus forgave many and I do follow him, yes. He is the greatest example to me in my life, and his teachings have only gratified me. Yeah, he (meaning Brian) didn't speak to me for an entire year, and I suffered and hated him for that. But in the end, what doesn't kill you makes you stronger. Brian and I won't be the best of friends. I no longer feel the way I did about him, nor will I ever. But in the end, what happened, happened. I believe that God had His reasons for completely removing him from my life. Sometimes, or atleast now I think I know exactly why. I'm thankful for this experience. I feel at peace with myself. I've forgiven. I am happy now.
kind of closure I had been looking for months ago. But I've certaintly had some closure with myself, and my inner being. The kind that leaves me at peace, and the kind that leaves Heavenly Father at peace. Forgiving others is probably one of the hardest things to do in our lives. However, there's no space for anger, regret, or grudges in heaven. I've never been there, No. But if it's anything like they talk about it at church than I must forgive and forget. Most of the forgetting was done, completely, 99.9%. The only thing left was to forgive. Brian ended up apologizing after all ... and I really did forgive him. Because at the end of the day... what help does it do, to hate him for the rest of my life? Jesus forgave many and I do follow him, yes. He is the greatest example to me in my life, and his teachings have only gratified me. Yeah, he (meaning Brian) didn't speak to me for an entire year, and I suffered and hated him for that. But in the end, what doesn't kill you makes you stronger. Brian and I won't be the best of friends. I no longer feel the way I did about him, nor will I ever. But in the end, what happened, happened. I believe that God had His reasons for completely removing him from my life. Sometimes, or atleast now I think I know exactly why. I'm thankful for this experience. I feel at peace with myself. I've forgiven. I am happy now.
This reminds me of a couple of church hymns, and If you know me at all, I used to sing whenever I felt down, or may had been going through something...
Love one Another.
As I have loved you,
Love one another.
This new commandment:
Love one another.
By this shall men know
Ye are my disciples,
If ye have love
One to another.
and this one...
Count your blessings...
When upon life’s billows you are tempest-tossed,
When you are discouraged, thinking all is lost,
Count your many blessings, name them one by one,
And it will surprise you what the Lord hath done.
Count your blessings, name them one by one,
Count your blessings, see what God hath done!
Count your blessings, name them one by one,
Count your many blessings, see what God hath done.
And it will surprise you what the Lord hath done
Count your blessings, see what God hath done!
Count your blessings, name them one by one,
Count your many blessings, see what God hath done.
And it will surprise you what the Lord hath done
Are you ever burdened with a load of care?
Does the cross seem heavy you are called to bear?
Count your many blessings, every doubt will fly,
And you will keep singing as the days go by.
When you look at others with their lands and gold,
Think that Christ has promised you His wealth untold;
Count your many blessings—*money cannot buy [*wealth can never buy]
Your reward in heaven, nor your home on high.
So, amid the conflict whether great or small,
Do not be discouraged, God is over all;
Count your many blessings, angels will attend,
Help and comfort give you to your journey’s end.
Do not be discouraged, God is over all;
Count your many blessings, angels will attend,
Help and comfort give you to your journey’s end.
